[ Nate reaches to take the coffee, and just holds it in his hands. It's a good ploy, the coffee thing. His throat has a way of closing up during these conversations. Drinking is a good way to open it. ]

Of the first time, [ he says, quietly. ] The Headless Horseman coming for me like on that Halloween. He hides inside people I love. Then other times I dream I'm a ghost again and I'm just like...screaming for people to hear me, and they can't. That happened the first time, too. It was worse than dying. Dying was quick, the ghost part lasted for days.