Yeah. I didn't really lose it until after he got back.

( nick doesn't think the timeline actually matters that much, but he specifies anyway, inspecting the cup in his hands now instead. anything that will hold his attention to his lap, really. it's just a lot easier to talk this way. )

I knew he wouldn't remember me, right? Cause like...it happened to me, I know what this whole thing is like, and I thought I was ready for it. But then he came home, and he doesn't know me, and I know it's not going to last forever, but I just kept thinking about it, and thinking about how he was killed, and Kyle is so fucked up about it, and then it's like, I died, and I can't stop thinking about that either, so I just--walked out.