allyourfeels | IC Inbox

i would argue that not typical is basically the definition of weird

weird can carry negative connotations that atypical doesn't

i would like 2 negatively connotate my atypical experiences

that's valid, but how you talk about yourself reflects on how you think about yourself

so while thinking "having a shitty older lover was weird" wouldn't be like, a bad thing, normally

in your case, given your tendency to blame yourself for bad things that happen to you, that kinda thing can escalate and land into you blaming yourself for not having had a typical teenagehood

so to sum it up: yeah, that was weird, but it wasn't weird bc of you

i mean tbf i could have just not fucked him so

(i'm joking)

i mean, i know very little about the situation, but i just need to know he was older to suspect v strongly the dude was a predatory asshole

(i'm not joking)

one of my bfs is literally a million caleb thats a very broad assumption to make ;)

but no idk. i think maybe we were just both a bit stupid + tried to be more than we were like. capable of and then like i was already a hot mess from school shit and it was just a bad combo yknow? he wasn't that much older

im gonna put a pin on the immortal bf thing bc like. under normal circumstances immortals dont exist so it's a non-issue, and also like, this place being so sex-oriented drawing a line re:ages here is impossible and possibly hypocritical.

but how old was the guy vs how old were you? bc like, 4 years isn't "A lot" but if you were 15 and he was 19, then it is.